// Past, present and Future. & Reasons why I hate society.//

Past, present and Future. & Reasons why I hate society.

My past is long forgotten I rarely dwell on it ever there’s no point. I can’t change what happened, no one can. But without my past I wouldn’t be who I am today. So erase, scrub-off and burn- the past. I’m happy, that’s all that matters! My past was fucked, I’m not going to deny that, but I love who I am and without my past I could be someone completely different, someone I hate with every bit of me. Sure I have shit times in memory of the past, everyone does and the days you wake up and look in the mirror and you just want to hack at your reflection with a fucking axe because you hate your self- why not! :)

People need to forget and forgive, there is no point ruining your present and somewhat of your future because of what’s been and gone. Sure you could plead a case guilty for years and years or you could just move the fuck on! I’m not saying moving on from things are easy, they can be hell hard and a huge emotional journey- but it’s possible. I have done it and people for centuries have done it. Why cant you?! 

Everything we encounter in our life small or big is a lesson, like a baby growing up they learn hot from cold etc… but that learning doesn’t stop at any age level. We are constantly filling our brain with information consciously or unconsciously. Sometimes we put it to use, sometimes we don’t. Put it to use!

This is one of the reasons I hate society so much. We all know things before we do them 90% of the times and most people just go ahead. No- one thinks about the consequences the outcome and how it would affect themselves and mainly others. This world is selfish, that’s the main word that comes to my head. No matter how many people learn from something and know not to do it, they keep doing it for selfish gain. Nobody, unless your mentally retarded, insane etc doesn’t think before doing something. We all have a conscience, we all think! People need to use it more. & if people considered others more, this world would be more in harmony.

I believe anything is possible if you put your mind to it. So why do so many continue sitting on their arses and thinking the worst of themselves, you can make something of yourself, it just takes effort. ‘But oh no, effort… it is just to hard for some people. Why’s that? Because they are selfish, most youths these days are used to having things done for them day in day out via parents, friends etc. Generation Y have such an easy lifestyle. Get off your arses and make something of yourself.

The constant winging from people because of their fucked up past, present and leading future, you can change it! No- one else can. People need to realise that your the only one in control of your life, the direction and the path your heading is completely up to you.

People need to start meditating on life and where they’re going.

// Time For Change//

You have put yourself in this dark lonely place, super glued yourself in this state. I freed you so many times, yet you crawl back to the life you hate but crave. What’s there left for me to do, I have tried so hard. If you want help, you must help yourself first. & if not, your on your own.

// We Should Get Jerseys, Because We Make A Great Team.//

As I look down to my left hand and see the shine of the ring, I can’t help but explode in to all emotions. I never thought that it could happen, have someone that wants to spend the rest of their days with me. It’s like waking up to a dream, a fantasy. I sometimes find myself questioning why and how… but I catch myself. I deserve this and so do you! Our pasts we have lived and carried on with us everyday, up until now. We have felt the same pain in past, heartache, loss and self worth… but it didn’t stop us or make us give up in the quest to find each other. & I have realised now, as much us our past was selfish to us, stripped us of everything imaginable, it taught us that good things in life are rare to come by… and you, Mykle by far, are the greatest thing in my life, that everything in my past was worth bearing just to live my life right now with you. I had only ever dreamed of finding the boy, that my hand fitted perfectly in, but I was fooled by life tricks, maybe fate. But your by my side now and we’re binded by a promise, a promise of love. No matter where you are or what state life chucks you in, I am always going to be here. I will fight for you, fight for this love, fight for our forever. Your amazing and have so much to give, and I will never let anyone tell you different… and one day I hope you agree. Life is going to get hard at times, and some days we wake up to the horrid gray and gloomy, but what’s a few bad days compared to the end of our days. I can’t wait to watch the days, months and years fly by… each day spent together and love still strong. ‘Here’s To The Past’ it brought us here and brought us together. I’m never going to stop loving you.

// True Love//

The night we first caught each others eyes, something happened. You made me melt on the spot, I became short breathed and my face was chilli hot. I have never felt like this with anyone, ever. I couldn’t take my eyes off you, they were super-glued to you. It’s amazing how you felt the same that night. To scared to talk to me, but the craving of hearing each others voice and looking in to each others eyes. It’s funny how we met at a bar, but I’ll never forget that night, ever.

It was the night we fell in love.

I know people are going to say things and some people won’t approve, but none of that matters to me, only you matter. Your my morning, my night, my forever. I have never felt so alive since you walked into my life. I never knew I could feel like this… so complete, surrounded by the genuine love you give. I wake amazed everyday knowing that your mine and I am yours, it’s a daily surprise. I don’t think, I know that we are going to be together for forever, and so do you. No matter what paths we take in life, we will be by each others sides holding hands. The feeling that you saved me and I saved you is truly beautiful. I’m never going to let you fall or hurt, promise. You give all meaning to life. Like, I couldn’t picture life without you now… there is nothing for me if your not there. The unusual feeling of me crying, not because I am sad but because I am so utterly in-love with you. I do believe when you say we are soul mates. To think of all the people that grow old and die not finding their partner, but we do.. and still so young. We are going to have such a great life together. So many memorys and adventures to come. There is NO one I would rather share my life with, than you baby.

I love you forever, Mykle.